Apetece-me Otep...

My pain, my pride, these scars are mine
I will tell you a story
That's never been told
I wll tell you a secret
Five lifetimes old
My life has been a prison
A labyrinth built beneath the mountain of tragedy
I'm a stain on the cloth
I'm just an after-thought
But I
Would die
For this

But through the veins of decay
I'll remain to betray
To live like Caesar
To die like Jesus
To build my own religion
No gods, no laws
To celebrate pain
Forsaken and ashamed
To watch them all
Crawl beneath us
On this bed of nails and regret
Dying of fevers, betrayal, and sweat
I cry

My organs are rotting
My enemies are plotting
I am made of pages
Paragraphs and inspirations
Paper girl, burn the world
I pass the flame to you
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, fuck her, slay them

My pain, my pride, these scars are mine
My pain
My misery has been formulated into an equation of nein
My sanity wrote a suicide note but
One of us is illiterate
And the other is blind
My first act of treason was picking up a pen
My
First act of love was
Finding myself again
The hardest thing to do
Was standing up to you
Now I'm off my knees
Now you're begging me please
I'm the wound and the weapon
The fracture and the
Fist

My organs are rotting
My enemies are plotting
I am made of pages
Paragraphs and inspirations
Paper girl, burn the world
I pass the flame to you
Murder, mayhem, hurt her, hate him
Murder, mayhem, fuck her, slay them

That stabbing in your heart
That black hole in your soul
Slowly ripping you apart
That's me
So let it be written
So let it be done
The brighter they shine
The darker
We
Become
Vae victus, abomination

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And this is how the world died [x2]
I can hear you judging me
I'll hear your confession
I found the best piece of me
Kneel down
Alone
Shivering in the dark
(Place your face between my thighs)
Three centimeters tall
And talk to god
Eating it's heart
But you will not feast on me today
This is how the world died
Who will slay this thing
I forgive you
Who will play the butcher and
End my suffering
I forgive you
I fucked the minds of the masses with the fingers of liberty
This is not a threat
This is not
A threat
I'm not perfect
I'm not a beauty queen I'm just me
I'm just me
We are all
Prisoners here
All shapes and sizes
I've screamed for all the women I've never been but hoped I would be
I'm proud of who I am
Forever
Chasing the sun
I'm proud of me
She bites her trembling mind
It began as all tragedies do
Forgive me [x2]
With pain and deception
If you'll be the paper I'll be the pen
This is it
I've tasted hell
And it tastes just like you

My final plea
No one is coming to save me
No one is going to change things
The answers will not drop from the sky
I will not one day wake with a different disguise
No
The only solution
Is revolution
Art is war
Fight [x2]
The odds were always against me
Lose weight
Clearly think
I exist I am broken [x2]
If god is my father
Then I am an orphan
I am broken
I am not a mistake [x2]
My ancestry is a ghost story
I'm a prophecy
My love life is a crime scene
I'm an omen
My self-esteem is a string of unsolved murders
The radio is brainwashing me filling my head with these
Self conspiracies
I am an emotional nightmare
I can't hide the pain inside
Builder of my own mythology
Just tell me
You're listening